Last week I uploaded a great guest blog by the wonderful Joel Leeky, it was the first post in roughly a month. I hadn’t intended to take a months break from writing, actually i hadn’t intended taking any time off writing at all, i have been really enjoying it and the feedback i have gotten from the posts has meant a lot…. so why the break? Honestly and openly i struggled the week after i placed the post ‘Changing the Garden’ online, i suffered from a spiritual attack and felt rubbish for a few days losing all confidence in who i was. I spent a few days simply questioning myself on those age old questions, have i actually achieved anything? How do i measure up to those around me? Essentially i took a fine tooth comb over my life and decided i came up well short of everything.
That was the first week of not writing, the second a family member passed away and the process of that dominated that week, the third week i went over myself again, again deciding i came up short, and so the thought process kept going until i finally placed Joel’s blog up. I’d love to say im completely grand now but today its taken a lot to actually get out and write this post… Honestly i don’t feel up for doing it.
I debated sharing this on the site, i never want to go looking for pity or a poor Paul thing but I guess i don’t want this blog to be like a ‘snapchat’ of my spiritual life, showcasing the great learning moments and the highlight reels not the other stuff that gets cut out and left on the edits room floor, instead i want to openly say i struggle at times and that’s completely ok.
So what now? I always write these posts to help others who are going through the same thing… Honestly i don’t actually have a great answer, so what i’m going to do now is Pray and ask the Father to direct my words..
Get around those who love you, get yourself around those people who encourage you who can call out your destiny and your true image and when they remind you of it, push into it again. For me i’m an encourage-er so when i feel low i need to get out and encourage others and remind myself that is who i am.
Pray to the father to break you out of the cycle you are in, ask him to come and engulf your life again and show his true and real love to you, read your bible and get a refresher of just how amazing God is and how he loves you
Remind yourself of his faithfulness in the past, remember the times the Father has shown his goodness to you, he is so good and for you, so remind yourself of that fact that he is completely for you and that he will always be with you.
Take your thoughts captive, don’t let those comparison thoughts or thoughts of feeling low dominate your thinking, when they come simply say ‘Stop!’ just in your own head say stop and instead think about God imagine an incredible life with him, the incredible goodness he has in mind for you.
Edit: While driving home after writing this i decided to put on my worship playlist and declared the truths in the songs over myself, instantly i was reminded that Worship is one of the greatest weapons we have to vanquish the enemy and his lies… funny i needed reminding of this considering i wrote the ‘Worship is a Weapon‘ blog post!
Here is a link to a playlist i have on Google Music, it features whatever worship songs i love and connect with the Father with, i update it every so often, hopefully you find it helpful to worship with or to find some new songs… Playlist
That’s all i have for this post, i pray it is encouraging to you and that you break out of the cycle of feeling low. If you ever would like prayer please do click the contact page and get in touch
Blessings
P